Some nights
I just lay down on my bed, looking at the roof. I hug the pillow besides me,
even though I know it’s not really you. Of course, who truly is that you?
There’s a physical you, there always is, like that last girl you had fun
fooling around with, or just had sex some time ago. There’s that you how will
help me when I’m sick, and will badger me into taking care of myself when I’m
out of shape. Then there’s also a you that pushes me to work, for me, for what
I want to do in my life. But I’m on my own, I go to bed, it’s usually freezing.
And when I wake up it still is.
Ok I had to
go there, not a good idea but I was thinking about something else, and it got
me kind of down. I’m really messed up, I guess you know this if you’ve read
anything else here or know me. And so long tangent aside, I recently read an
article “The War on Men” written by Suzanne Venker. It’s kind of particular in
itself because I don’t really read about feminist stuff and it a FOX thing so
it’s not really my thing. But one thing did seem pretty interesting:
“ …But
what if the dearth of good men, and ongoing battle of the sexes, is – hold on
to your seats – women’s fault? ... After decades of browbeating the American
male, men are tired. Tired of being told there’s something fundamentally wrong
with them. Tired of being told that if women aren’t happy, it’s men’s fault.
Contrary to what feminists like Hanna Rosin, author of The End of Men,
say, the so-called rise of women has not threatened men. It has pissed them
off. It has also undermined their ability to become self-sufficient in the
hopes of someday supporting a family. Men want to love women, not compete with
them. They want to provide for and protect their families – it’s in their DNA.
But modern women won’t let them…”.
And while
as a man, I can find it comforting, I kind of think its bullshit. I can’t
understand why gender battles are waged as if this was a zero sum game or
something like that. Women have had important accomplishments and huge gains,
but most men will think it’s just as simple as women taking shit from them. But
going back to the article, there’s some assumption I don’t agree with. She says
it’s encoded in us that men have a role. But what about women? It’s completely
ok to say that women have fought and evolved out of that square space their
genes pegged them in. But it’s crap to say that men haven’t changed, we have,
just not really in a good way.
Men
shouldn’t define themselves because of their capability to care for a family,
just as women shouldn’t be defined by their capabilities as wives for example.
Gender battles can’t be reduced to “it’s your turn to take care of the kids and
cook dinner forever”. Because the
economic reality is that a single income home is not really feasible. But more
to the point, why don’t women really accept a complete change of the paradigm.
Fuck it; I don’t think it’s wrong that a man could want to be a Mr. Mom.
Let me try
again, while it can be real easy to say, yes men are pissed at having to fight
with women, it’s not true. I say that as a man, I could accept that if I ever
marry my wife will probably earn more money than me. That’s not to belittle
myself, but as an amateur writer, I’ll probably be lucky to make a living with
it. I’ll most likely be a teacher or something, and just write to please
myself. Yeah, I was raised that I would marry and provide for a family, but
shit, sometimes it’s just not in the cards. As a man I what to think I could
choose to love a woman because she loved me too. And it should be that we would
both agree what do we want out of being together and how. If I have to take
care of the kids, I will, and if she needs support because they make her feel
like crap for putting her kids second, I’ll tell her she hasn’t, we just juggle
things our own way.
Shit I have
no idea where I’m going. I do know men aren’t equipped to deal with stuff. Women
want change, and it will happen; fighting men be dammed. And yet maybe in a
couple of generations things will make sense. But they don’t for me. Sometimes
nothing does.
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